2024... Fuh!

 Assalamualaikum... 

Hi self, 안녕! 잘 지내지? 10 days into the year, back to work almost full swing..almost but my body is still on weekend clock and this week I am attending workshop which starts at 9AM (which means I have to be at work 8AM) and be awake for the whole day, and must be able to focus. 

3rd day of workshop, I still struggle to keep myself awake, what more to focus and contribute to the workshop..

Yesterday I messaged most of my remaining friends that I can find within the company chat app, saying I need the distraction to stay awake. Teruk betui...hahaha..

So.. how have I been? Covid flew by and within the pandemic period I managed to steer clear...but end of last year sees spike in infection here in Malaysia.. and I was part of the statistic as well. Survived the pandemic tapi kecundang jugak time endemic ni...hahaha.. before Xmas I got infected, during Xmas my SV kena, and right into the new year another colleague got hit with Covid...hahaha.. Ok back to me. 

I am still in Miri, doing the same job, but living in different house now. Apart from that life has been pretty much the same.. I should have updated more. I wanted to but I was too lazy..haha..

Ok, some notable things that I can be proud off, I have improved a lot in 한국어.. Started in 2021 and I am at intermediate level now. I can read albeit very slow, understand simple dialogue, and if I were to leave a rom-com drama running in the background, I can understand the conversation, if not the context of the scene. The only thing that I have not improved as much as I hoped is the conversation part. 너무 어려워요.... and noticed that I switched typing more easily these days. I have my laptop and phone configured with 한글 keyboard. 

And like many of the previous new years.... the resolution to loose weight is by default ignited. We'll see how far we get this year, and with few holidays planned, I am prepared to be on yo-yo journey again, but hopefully not so much, and by end of this year, hoping to see the deficit. 

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Happy New Year 2019?

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wa barakatuh...

Since we are still in January, I guess its not really a late post (at the rate everybody is blogging now days..hahaha..) Some people has totally abandoned the blog, and switching to more regular updates in FB/IG. That is kinda good thing, as I can feel safe to vent in blog again.

So how was my 2018? All in, good, average good, work is fine, but I've been slacking off. Somehow lost my motivation a long the year, I blame the midlife crisis. Can't really get out of it, as I am still the sole provider for the family. This year will be tougher, a lot has changed, I foresee the family will rely a lot more on me during emergency times (which is getting more frequent these days). Sedih that we have not really get our act together as a family and live comfortably like all other families do. Feeling burdened for the longest time possible, but I have no choice but to weather through.

Therefore, I am choosing to lay low this year, not going back KL as much as 2018. Live quietly in Miri, and only go back when it is really needed. Need above wants, and now the need is only that matters. How will then I fulfill my 'wants'? Already lined up few things, travel to be exact, looking forward to it, very much. So hopefully that will materialize.

Choosing to live quietly in Miri and minimizing KL trip can only mean I am withdrawing from social world even more. Weekend in Miri means going back on Friday afternoon after work and I can stay indoor (didn't even bother to go out to tend to my garden) until Monday morning. I tried making an effort to go out for breakfast on Saturday, or a movie or two. Last 2 weeks, I actually spent few hours sitting in Starbucks, ordered a frappucino and mind my own business. It felt good. I need to make a point to go out, I need the air. I can spend the weekend not talking to a single soul, be it F2F or via social media, I can really do that. Mode masuk gua kalau untuk orang lain, but for me, it has become a normal mode.

Geng Cik Kiah came for a visit just before new year, they left on 31st and I spent the NY eve alone cooped up in the house. What else? 😏 My next trip out is for CNY, heading to SG, so I'll be fine going into solitude mode for another couple of weekends.

Why have I not been meeting new people in Miri, why can't I find new friends to hang out with? The answer is simple. I became lazy, lazy to make effort, lazy to approach people, lazy to just move. I no longer crave for companionship in that sense. I have always been fine going to cinema alone, but somehow it has become a norm, it would be hard for me to plan movie date with anybody, I think. Susah jugak kan kalau dah sampai phase macam ni.

I am going to stop pestering people to come visit me in Miri. Maybe I will go to Gua Niah on my own, tak payah tunggu visitors mai sini. This is Malaysia, what am I so afraid of? Now that I've driven to BSB with the Cik Kiahs, I think I can go solo. Already thinking of maybe one of the weekend in Ramadhan, nak try solat terawih kat one of the masjid, insyaAllah.

Ok, finishing off now. Next post maybe on how I spend weekends cooping up in the house. I thought I wanted to talk about that today, tapi bila dah start menaip, side track pulak..haha.

Till next time, wassalam.