I am tired of being an adult...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t,

What a title eh? hahaha... really, have been feeling that way lately and last night, adulting came real. How so?

March has been a month where I barely spend the night at home. First two weeks, was away in KK for a workshop. In that 2 weeks, flew back to KL for the weekend and then went on road trip with Sakina and Mawar. Last weekend I was back in Miri, only to fly back to KL on Monday afternoon as I've enrolled to attend a 2-day Process Safety seminar. Flew in last night.. reached home at ~9PM, ready to take a bath and call it a day.

Turned on the tap, no water... I knew I have not been paying the bills for quite some time, and I have this eerie feeling that my water supply has been disconnected. And then I remembered on Monday, there was a pipe leak incident near the house, so I texted both the landlord and my neighbour asking about any announcement of disruption. All is good, but they asked me to check the main valve outside, if its still shut. I wanted to just go to sleep, and check in the morning, but somehow, I've decided to check just before I went to bed. Lo and behold, the meter is gone...hahahahahaha... seumur hidup, this is the first time I've experience sampai meter kena ambik.

We used to live in government subsidised flat for almost 20 years. In the days where we almost have nothing to eat, mak still make sure that the rent is being paid in full, without fail. First thing the DBKL would do is cut the water supply for those who has been neglecting the house rent. That was mak's principle, biar tak makan, tapi jangan sampai kena halau.

So back to my case, I make do with whatever mineral/drinking water I have left in the house. The big tank outside is emptied out as well.. I think they must've taken away the meter last week, and when I was back in the weekend, I've been consuming the inventory from the tank..hahaha.. Semalam semua kering habis!

So this morning I went to LAKU ( Sarawak state govt owned company that manages water supply in Sarawak). Upon checking, I've not been paying the bills since July last year, baki tertunggak tak sampai RM50. But then no payment since July 2018, memang patut pun kena potong...hahahaha.. padan muka.

I paid all the bills, paid some in advance as well (enough to cover 2019), paid the re-connecting fee and I will get back my meter tonight. Haih la... It really has come to this. Being an adult, you can't afford to slack off, what more if you are living alone like me. You can play dumb, but it will bite you back when you least expected. I will need to include in the reminder for water bills next year. I've not really grown up have I?

Ohh well.... confession is good for the soul, and I am too ashamed to tell this to anyone else, so kat sini la bersemadi cerita ni. Another drama episode of my  mundane life..haha. Till next time.

Wassalam. 

Kill Me Heal Me

Assalamualaikum w.b.t,

Second month of the month, and second post.. (yay??) haha.. What has happened since last post..hmm.. nothing much, spent the weekend before CNY in SG, met up with friends, and a little bit of jalan-jalan..and finished this one K-Drama in between the trip.

Recommended by my colleague Chin Yin, since I have just discovered a liking towards Park Seo Joon. This was among his first drama, and true enough I love him in this one as well.

While my eyes were
 focused on Seo Joon, the main character and the story line hooks me, and the OST sangat2 sesuai, maybe it was specifically written for the drama, which makes it more impactful.

Before I knew it, I downloaded the song and have it in my playlist. Next thing I know, I watched the two lead again in their earlier drama, Secret Love.. fuh.. sedih gila, I was bawling  my eyes out. Tragic sangat cerita the heroine. 

And then I finished that within just 1 day +. Sanggup tak tidoq malam, start dari Jumaat malam, sampai ke Sabtu, marathon (blame Netflix! haha).

After that I finally started on Goblin, been there in my list for quite some time, but don't really have the inkling to start. People will say that I will fall in love with both of the lead actor, but as weird as it seems, I don't feel the love yet. Granted, they have superb chemistry and I am enjoying the bromance between the two, I don't find myself in a rush to look them up yet.

I was beginning to worry that I will fall in love with just anything K-Drama, now that the flood gate is opened, but thankfully it is not the case :).

When I love an actor, I can tell almost instantly, after maybe 1-2 episodes the heart decides.  Same goes with OST, when I feel connected to it, immediately I will search high and low for it. Goblin didn't gave me the same effect, 7 episodes down, but not yet, but I still enjoy the story though.

So I guess this heart of mine is still choosy, hahaha.. I still don't fall in love that easily. Ok, selamat la kan..

Ok, now waiting for the mood to check out another Park Seo Joon's drama, Fight for My Way. At the same time dah kena racun to watch another drama by this guy Ji Sung. He, to me, has a face which is of the same type like Song Joong Ki, what I call a sweet face, they can just move a 5mm of a muscle and you can see the sweet smile, effortless. Muka psycho pun boleh, how can you not fall in love with that?

Enough for today. Adios. 

Happy New Year 2019?

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wa barakatuh...

Since we are still in January, I guess its not really a late post (at the rate everybody is blogging now days..hahaha..) Some people has totally abandoned the blog, and switching to more regular updates in FB/IG. That is kinda good thing, as I can feel safe to vent in blog again.

So how was my 2018? All in, good, average good, work is fine, but I've been slacking off. Somehow lost my motivation a long the year, I blame the midlife crisis. Can't really get out of it, as I am still the sole provider for the family. This year will be tougher, a lot has changed, I foresee the family will rely a lot more on me during emergency times (which is getting more frequent these days). Sedih that we have not really get our act together as a family and live comfortably like all other families do. Feeling burdened for the longest time possible, but I have no choice but to weather through.

Therefore, I am choosing to lay low this year, not going back KL as much as 2018. Live quietly in Miri, and only go back when it is really needed. Need above wants, and now the need is only that matters. How will then I fulfill my 'wants'? Already lined up few things, travel to be exact, looking forward to it, very much. So hopefully that will materialize.

Choosing to live quietly in Miri and minimizing KL trip can only mean I am withdrawing from social world even more. Weekend in Miri means going back on Friday afternoon after work and I can stay indoor (didn't even bother to go out to tend to my garden) until Monday morning. I tried making an effort to go out for breakfast on Saturday, or a movie or two. Last 2 weeks, I actually spent few hours sitting in Starbucks, ordered a frappucino and mind my own business. It felt good. I need to make a point to go out, I need the air. I can spend the weekend not talking to a single soul, be it F2F or via social media, I can really do that. Mode masuk gua kalau untuk orang lain, but for me, it has become a normal mode.

Geng Cik Kiah came for a visit just before new year, they left on 31st and I spent the NY eve alone cooped up in the house. What else? 😏 My next trip out is for CNY, heading to SG, so I'll be fine going into solitude mode for another couple of weekends.

Why have I not been meeting new people in Miri, why can't I find new friends to hang out with? The answer is simple. I became lazy, lazy to make effort, lazy to approach people, lazy to just move. I no longer crave for companionship in that sense. I have always been fine going to cinema alone, but somehow it has become a norm, it would be hard for me to plan movie date with anybody, I think. Susah jugak kan kalau dah sampai phase macam ni.

I am going to stop pestering people to come visit me in Miri. Maybe I will go to Gua Niah on my own, tak payah tunggu visitors mai sini. This is Malaysia, what am I so afraid of? Now that I've driven to BSB with the Cik Kiahs, I think I can go solo. Already thinking of maybe one of the weekend in Ramadhan, nak try solat terawih kat one of the masjid, insyaAllah.

Ok, finishing off now. Next post maybe on how I spend weekends cooping up in the house. I thought I wanted to talk about that today, tapi bila dah start menaip, side track pulak..haha.

Till next time, wassalam. 

Something in The Rain

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Once in few years I will have one drama that get straight to my heart. The one that I can watch over and over and over again. I'm a sucker for romance, no doubt about that. Adding to my list is this 2018 K-Drama hit, English title is Something in The Rain, the direct translation title is Pretty Noona Who Buys Me Food.



Why am I crazily in love with this drama? Because the lead character, though he's the younger one, he is the matured one in the relationship. Their love was so intense and passionate and it really strucks me. How they were playful with each other is what I dreamed of how my relationship would be, its just that I can't be open to let loose just to anyone. Online I'm more open, but if you meet me F2F, I can come across as cold at times.

Jun Hee (the main character) though seems to be playful at times, takes the relationship very seriously. In episode 15, I would have just drop everything and follow him. To have someone that will love you that much and that deep, I will follow him to the end of the world. I really do. Other things that I like:
1. How Jun Hee tilted his head when he looks at Jin-Ah, ya ampun, its handsome, charming, cute all bundled up together.
2. How Jun Hee will always be the first one to extend his arms around Jin-Ah when she's feeling down, happy or whatever conditions.

Oh man, I will not be able to move on from this drama for a while. Watch the complete series twice already. Watched J-Drama With Love countless times!!. Watched Brilliant Legacy also more than twice, so yeah, I might not watched many drama, but those that I really like will stick to me forever. I am so screwed...

Oh well... how else do I entertain myself? Drama is a form of life that I will not be able to live, so I watch. That is the best that I can get.  

My Dream Home

Assalamualaikum w.b.t,

I used to dream of marrying an architect, so that he can design and build a house for me. But that marriage boat has long sailed and doesn't look like I'm getting on board to any. But I've not given up on my dream yet.

Things that I would like to have in my dream home.

1. Super gorgeous kitchen that's made for cooking and entertaining at the same time. Having a worktop that sort of like Jamie Oliver's naked chefs time would be a blast. Mandatory feature, would be the prep top will have a hole for the organic waste disposal, to be used for making compost. Island kitchen is a must, with counter that comes with bar stool for quick meal especially in the morning. The dining room can be designed separately, but it would be nice to have a view of what happen in the kitchen. 
2. Indoor play area for my niece and nephew. This room should have a ping-pong table, or maybe pool table. Kinda like man cave, but more to kids/teenager's friendly. Can be converted to TV room as well.
3. One exercise room, wood flooring, with one side of the wall covered with mirrors from the floor to the ceiling, with smart TV installed (senang nak follow those YouTube video exercise). I can do yoga, light aerobics, and leave the whole floor empty for the kids to enjoy as well. That room will be a multipurpose room for prayer, so it has to be big. Am thinking the master bedroom will be a good location for this. 

That's all I have for now. Need to work on the budgeting and such, so that I can set aside, or maybe plan an investment that will give me the kind of money that I need for this to happen. Let's aim this for my retirement, shall we?

Signing off for now. Wassalam. 

World Cup 2018 Russia

Assalamualaikum wbt

Its that time of 4 years again, yes, World Cup is heating up worldwide as we speak, with group stage completed and now we are at the round of 16, things are heating up pretty fast. And alhamdulillah, I will be going again this year, my 3rd world cup :)

This time around the fight to get the ticket was so intense, we did not get what we wanted, we only managed to secure a 3rd match ticket and I bought a quarter final ticket for myself. This time around there will be 3 of us, Dieya at first almost could not make it despite having completed (purchased) all the flight tickets and hotel stay and all, but by some lucky turn of event, she will be going! We have a new member joining the GCK, Fizah my BBGS mate. This is her first world cup and bet you she is ecstatic! Ija and Adin had to pass this trip due to some personal constraint. 

I will be going first, my flight is departing this Friday 6th July. As of now, only my body is here, my soul has partially departed..hahaha..My first destination is Samara, langsung tak research lagi nak buat apa kat sana. I will have 8,9 and 10th to go around jalan-jalan. The girsl will join me later on 10th in St Petersburg and then we will proceed to Moscow and then final destination Kazan. 

Hopefully everything will go well, insyaAllah. Till next post. Tata.

WLC Update

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wa barakatuh...

I started this journey in early April, weighted about 88kg. Today, when I weighed myself this morning, it was 81.8 kg. That is 6.2 kg in almost 2 months. I did cheat in between. The week of the election, I was in KL, all things goes out of the window..hehehe.. Other people easily loose 6 kg in one month.

I know it will be (forever and ever) an uphill battle for me in terms of loosing weight. I can tighten my belt, exercise like crazy and yet I will still see my weight plateau. I totally broke down yesterday morning, the weight was stagnant at 82.4 kg for few days despite it being fasting month. Stress ok. Orang lain follow the meal plan and they easily loose 2-3 kilo a week. Me? Jangan harap. I would have to supplement the meal plan with a 5K walk to even loose 1kg a week. It is so unfair and I hate my body for this. I really do, but not to the point of damaging it. I won't be going to jamu store and buy whatever ubat kurus available. Tak la sampai macam tu.

The key now is to keep telling myself, I'm doing fine, its ok to slack off once in a while, but just keep doing this. Physically, I've not felt any significant difference. My body hasn't change that much. People are still not able to tell that I am loosing weight. It will take loosing another 5 kg easily if I were to feel it I guess. Punya la ketegaq lemak-lemak ni semua.

I plan to have a full medical check up closer to my birthday. Hopefully I'll be out of obese zone by that time. I need to start looking for personal insurance. Who knows what will happen in the future. The company will not be there for me the whole time, my days are numbered. In order to not pay for a hefty premium, I need to get myself out of the high risk zone. InsyaAllah I can do it.

Till next time. Wassalam.